I'm so happy I could cry.

I'm genuinely so happy this morning I could cry. I first want to start off my giving all glory to God this morning. Last week I went to the doctor for those stinkin' ulcers I get. They were in the back of my throat and since I have the privelage of taking care of babies I just wanted to be sure it wasn't the beginning of strep. Prayerfully it wasn't strep. While I was there I talked to Dr. J about the usual symptoms I've been having about my Chronic Fatigue. It's something I've lived with for almost 5 years that it's just a part of everyday life. He gave me a scrip for the ulcers and a years supply of pain meds and highly recommended my trying Lyrica as a preventative for my pain. He said they prescribe it for Fibro patients and said that if it worked for me it could change my life. Change my life for $2 a day, I was all about trying it. We talked about the risks and side effects and he put me on the lowest dose. He said give it a full week and after 2 weeks if it isn't working we will increase the dose. Well it's been 7 days today.

To preface, I worked all day yesterday, did Gingerbread houses with the kiddos and then stayed out until 11:58 pm shopping with a girlfriend. That's a full day for anyone and ridiculous for me to even consider if I want to at all function the next day. I need at least 8 hrs of sleep and to stay off my feet as much as possible. As if that ever happens. Then, this morning Mark was on a rant about Santa. Oh my gosh, it was the complete opposite conversation I recall having 7 years ago to be exact. Anyway, we discussed it and discussed it so much that Matthew was actually tardy for the 1st time ever with me trying to get out the door. I felt sick, just sick about him being late. So when Mark called to apolojize for the 3rd time I had to interrupt him with the it's okay saying I just can't be upset I feel good today. He actually said how can you feel good after my reaction this morning and I said, well when you feel bad, bad things just add to it but today I feel good.

Tears are swelling up in my eyes. I don't know what this afternoon will bring, I certainly don't know what will happen tomorrow. With all the sadness going around; car accidents, death, divorce, and the list truly goes on and on. So many people I know are hurting, emotionally and financially. But today, I feel good, in fact I feel GREAT. So I want to give Thanks, Thanks to God for Dr. J, Thanks for medicines that heal, Thanks for the ability to pay for the scrip. Thanks for the 1st day in a very long time that I just didn't want to crawl back in bed. Thank you God , my husband, my father, my kids and our Amazing God.